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Thursday, June 29, 2006

Can't let Erotica be the last thing I post.

Tonight is my Sister's 10th wedding anniversary. Being the great guy that I am, I offered to baby sit my niece and nephew so that she and her husband could go out for dinner and excessive drinking (My sister and I are the only drinkers in my family, I've always found this strange.)
The children are in bed. Both kids, 5 and 7, asked me to leave their bedroom doors open. This means I can't turn on the TV. Sucks for me, but it means I am posting for the first time in 2 months.

Quick overview...
May - Worked really hard at new job. I was focused to the point of being anti-social, a first for me. After two months a review of my pipeline lead my boss to conclude that it would not be possible for me to meet my quota any time in the near future. I was pink slipped just ahead of the press release that the company had acquired $150 million in funding and would be going public within a year. The 5000 shares of stock I was promised at signing would not be part of my severence. There was in fact no severence.

June - I went into a funk. I basically shut down. Outside of a weekly softball game I only came out of my apartment to hit a drive through and return home. Some days I didn't shower. I watched TV each night into the AM (Cartoon Network has Family Guy reruns on at 3:30AM.)
I had a number of friends and family offer opinions as to what I should do and ideas for jobs I should seek. Most seemed surprised when I told them that I'm not looking for a new job yet.

An interesting parrallel has surfaced in my life between jobs and relationships with women. Neither have ever turned out well. I currently question my abilty to perform adequately in either and I'm not in a hurry to begin anew with either while my head is as fucked up as it is now.

I haven't posted for a long time because I knew that the depression would be apparent and I didn't like the idea of posting my inner shit storm on the internet. I'm not sure why I'm doing it now. I guess because I don't need the disappointment of knowing I let my blog die on top of everything else.